Phew

Happy to report, no broken bones and no work restrictions. Just picked up our new couch and the apartment finally is starting to feel like a home. Can't wait to start focusing more on my crafts and get my sewing machine set up so that I can start on my rugs. First things first, Christmas. This year is starting to feel so much more like the holidays to me and I don't know if it is having my own little one, or being closer to family, or the snow.....either way, I am actually REALLY excited. This time of year usually makes me feel really drained and stressed and I kind of dread the whole thing. This year will be so different. I'll post some pictures soon of the projects I'm working on and the holiday festivities. It is good motivation to finish things now that I have presents to make. Oh, and the baby has a tooth poking through! It is both exciting and scary to see her growing so fast. I want to cherish every moment and I feel like I've been so stressed that she just changes before my eyes and I don't even notice. I want to settle down and just enjoy my time home because after all, I really am lucky.

Seriously?

Ok God, this isn't funny anymore. What exactly am I not getting? I know that there must be something to learn from these experiences, but in the moment, I only feel stress. Our breadwinner fell on his hand last night and may have broken it. It's a little scary now as we wait to go to the Dr. to see if he'll be able to continue working. Of course I would get a job if it came down to it, our family must be provided for. Somehow I don't think MY 9-5 would end at 5 as there will always be laundry and dishes and dinner and the baby to tend to. I must find a way to turn my creative outlet into monetary value. What is my time worth? Staying home with my daughter is priceless, but unfortunately, it doesn't pay our bills. Purple, magenta, teal and just a hint of navy thrown in to spice things up. Endless ripples and the only thoughts in my head are 1, 2, 3, 4 ,5, 6, 7 chain 2...lose myself in crochet. It's not like we spilled hot coffee on ourselves from an unnamed restaurant and now are suing for damages to the ring of 1 million dollars. Now that I think about it, I could use a cup of coffee.....HOT coffee.

Welcome to the wonderful world of Joleen

I am inspired by the things around me to do something great with my life, but lack the motivation or drive to get going. I have no direction, no roadmap if you will. My head is full of these wonderful ideas that do not seem to make it out. I'm clouded by reality and responsibility and life. Negativity holds me back. These ideas, these thoughts and images, are my life and I no longer want them to remain in my head. I must move forward and in doing so, I am keeping this chronological record of all the wonderful things I set out to do. So long suckers, you can't stop me now.